love,sunshine,& happiness (:

2010-01-23T19:14:00.000+08:00

“Love ♥ is not a matter of counting the years, But making the years count.” -Michelle St. Amand

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2009-12-27T00:12:00.002+08:00

its really been quite some time since i last blogged!

and yes, im finally back from turkey (: hee.

summing up turkey in a few words:

it's a developing country. its people are really friendly. however, the places i visited included museums,mosques,caves,and yes back to museums :x
9/32 tour people were teachers, 1 ex-principal of HCI, a prison officer-and the rest, i never really spoke to em. haha
nonetheless,i really enjoyed time spent with my family. its like a once a year thing,that everyone really gets to spend more than 24/7 together. of cus that's excluding birthdays,newyear etc.
and the hotels we stayed in, esp the 5 star WOW hotel executive, really WOW (: thumbbs!

and so talking about festives, i spent abita christmas in turkey, most of in the airplane, and the rest of the night with adrian! <3
we went to ps cafe, a place he booked a week in advance! hee. though it was pretty much like a turkey-in-singapore thingy, i really really loved him for being so ti tie, doing his research, and booking the place! :)) he had some prawn-pasta thingy, and we shared wasibi chips and potatoes plus mango-banana crumble. was quite a costly meal, but really memorable xmas (: my first xmas in singapore since like how many years! :)

and next, was gift exchange! u know how glad i was to know that he liked the present i had for him! heh, cracked pretty much of my brains on that. haha! (: at leasst the money from invigilation went to good use! *.*

and yes, his gift for me, i super super love! im so gonna wear it everywhere i go. and i hope i will never lose it! u sure spent a bomb on it! thank you for being so loose-budget with my xmas gift! haha love you darling! :))

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and a little biit about my boxing day?

i went pp for lunch with dad, mum, yumi and myron. we had sushi, havent had it in months! used to be a weekly family place, really eat till scared. but after 10 days of turkish food, sushi was certainly a pleasant change (: heh. i ate quite a bit, shocked mum that i could actually finish everything that i ordered! heheh.

and later on, adrian came down to my place. played abita uno with yumi and myron, before we headed to csc for dinner with ck and keely.
bowling after that felt good. felt very homely, and dearie was super supportive of me, and kept saying that i was good, even when the balls hit the drain time after time! :X lols.

later, we went back to mg, for a game of monopoly. haha. okay adrian won. lols, with 19million in his account. i was runner up-with 14 million or so. can u imagine, if this is all real? muaahahha. the thought of it is sending many clouds to my head. hahaha :)))

okoky. time for some loveydovey on the fone. haha (:

bye guys!

2009-12-15T00:15:00.003+08:00

decided that i shall leave a lil footprints here today

cos' come tmr this time, i'd be on the turkish-airlines, on my way to turkey! im still so amused by the turkish-airlines thingy, have never heard of it, till lately haha.

anyway, im kinda happy! finally, the genting trip has been fixed, and paid for! hee. i really can't wait! hee. loved the feeling of heading to golden mile with adrian-making enquiries, and making payment rightaway, like how cool?! (:

oh, and today, 3rdyiyi treated me and adrian to dinner @ macau express. i think that's the place. haha, was a lovely dinner-esp since it meant that we dint have to squeeze with the acca crowd! hee.

okay i know this is a rather haphazard kinda blogging, like the events aren't really sequential. haha, but yah, went to bugis with adrian after golden mile. hee. meant to shop for xmas gifts, but a damned shopkeeper went to put my items back while i was away withdrawing cash. stewpid. nonethelesss, it wasn't exactly that un-fruitful, since we got away with great ice-cream, and 2 really cool polaroidss!! : )))
the spot-the-difference polaroids. one made in china, one genuine huo (: haha.

tmr 'd be my last day of invigilation. much as it gives me bodyaches, i think im gonna miss it.
i will miss the feeling of walking down the aisle opps, yah rows, and turning to look/smile @ dearie from time to time. haha. super like our own paradise lols.

okay, that's all for today! u shall next hear from me in 11days time, i think? hee (:

merryXmas to one and all! <3

2009-12-12T19:48:00.002+08:00

i decided to throw in abita information here, cos the boyfriend asked why i dint blog

and he's so nice now, giving me time to blog while he WOW. i tried to distract him with the dolphin, but to no avail. hai, such is my boyfriend the wow-addict. lols.
and besides blogging, im also entertaining this 'gay0friend' of his for him. TYS lols.
ten year series! this guys is pretty much a bugger. he talks like a guy, but kinda behaves like a girl? wait, what am i saying. haha, okay pretty gay. lol

anyway, will be going genting with liwei, her chaser, and adrian! prolly 456January! hee,can't wait. am pretty excited about it-from the booking to the payments to the actual going there, everything! hee.

{-MARSHMALLOWS FOR BREAKFAST-}

'i love to have marshmallows. you know what marshmallows are? they are those little squashy sugary things. they are usually pink and white. and sometimes, i eat them for breakfast. and i like to make it special, because breakfast on a Saturday has to be special.'

Steps:
Sprinkle it into the empty cereal bowl.
The first dose of wishes is always love.
Second dose is always happiness, because that makes u smile in your tummy.
And the third, is sunshine. To warm you up inside.
Magic.

Dearie, you can come here to sneak a look @ this recipe anytime u miss me too much from the 15th-25th dec (:

2009-12-10T22:34:00.002+08:00

today, the boyfriend and i headed for tampines1 after invigilation

we ate @ dian xiao er. haha, that place never fails to bring back super-memories (:
anyway, dinner was good, and service-great. we were both happy!

next, we walked ard, and headed for the tour agency place, to check out the rates for our trip in jan! hee, rly hope it materialises..heee. im pretty much convinced its more worth it to go overseas now-since u spend the same amount of money in singapore. lol! that said, if we get to go, it'd be my first self-fund trip, and first trip overseas with friends! how cool is that! more so would be cos' its a trip with the boyfriend too-hee,a trial before the US trip!

ohya, i wanna talk about invigilation. hee, im 9A today, and dearie's 6A! we were sooo close! super nice. lol. walking down the rows, i get this image of smth else-esp cos our walking was like kinda matched..LOL. okok, come back come back. HAHA.

ohh, and i just wanna talk abit about the show 'couples-retreat' we caught yesterday night! it was fab. first cos adrian booked it in advance, 2nd cos the show itself was really quite nice, and the scenary of eden-wow. i wanna go eden! nono, i wanna go maldives (:

as im typing this, my feet's hurting, back's aching from all the walking the past few days. boohoo. i can't wait for the weekends to come! i wanna spend some nua time with him : ))

2009-12-08T23:23:00.004+08:00

im blogging this while waiting for adrian to get home safely

its been a really long day-mainly cos adrian and i were really busy trying to be as hurting to the other party as possible. booooo : (

sarky that i could only see him from like 11 rows away..i remember thinking to myself like boo, i was 15A yesterday, and 17A today. adrian was 5B, but he became 6A. that pulls us one row further apart. and what made things worse was we were still unhappy with each other over the night before. BOO. and that only meant that we could see each other from afar, but act cannot see. also, both of us had the same break, which was how good! but bah. cos we were quarrelling, and neither of us budged, adrian dint eat in the end. how sarky is that! and i found out he dint eat much for breakfast either-poorboy. im so very sorry for that. i should have gotten u a subwaycookiee
:( mybad.

walala, and the day of invigilation is finally over. adrian sent me home after, though we werent talking much, if any at all. He knew I was cold-and placed his sling bag on my lap. booo, bad move. that made me gandong1 :X i was stubborn, and dint wanna budge still. The fatique from the day's walking was eating into me as well, and so i slept throughout the journey. Finally home sweet home. There was this super high speed car-and I saw how adrian tried to pull me back. I was super gandong2. I could see how much he cared on both occasions, and felt kinda bad-though I was really very pissed about the night before.

alas, after all the big hoohaa, we finally managed to get it resolved, and even went for dinner. The few hours spent at HK cafe definitely beat the many hours spent in expo hall 1 by leaps and bounds. I felt so very loved all over again.

the dolphin spent a night on the cold hard floor, i shall make it up to it tonight, and let it sleep on my stomach. and it shall be nicely tucked in tonight, fed some good food, and have its fur brushed (:

Iwannabewithnobodyelsebutyou <3

*nik, rmb to zuo ge ke ai de wu po, and not make adrian so sad anymoree!*

2009-12-06T21:54:00.003+08:00

so quickly, and the day is coming to an end already

and yes, we made it to JB City Square and back, safely.
Prolly that's the best thing that has happened today.

Things weren't going as smoothly as expected today. Right from the morning when I had to top up that BEE-EZlink. Goddamnn. So darn difficult just to have it topped up! Imagine the pain of having to search for a place, and queue queue queue just to be told that 'sorry, you need to go SOMEWHERE else' to do the top up. BLAH. like damnits? But okay. Consolation? I finally managed to get it topped up at 7-11.

Anyways, and so I met adrian, and we made our way to JB-where we had to stand on the SBS bus, all the way, from one checkpoint to another. (Stewpid JAM) But thank god that buses get their own PRINCESS-lane once in a while, so prolly if u are thinking of going to shop in JB, hop on one of those SBS buses. haha. and make sure u be ungentleman and get a seat-for your own good (:

Okay, and walawala, we finally reached City Square. The stuffs there are REALLY CHEAP u know. hee. Bought a pair of shoes for myself at 19.90 Ringgit..Thats like about 8-9 SinMullahs. Hee. and got my sisters some stuffs too.

All in all, it was an alright experience-which could have been so much better if my morning started right, and if we even managed to snap a picture, or keep the bus tickets. Anyhow, I am really happy to be able to go overSEAS with the special! Both our first-times, felt wayy cool.
Really nice having that someone teng me and zhao gu me all the way, despite our blur-blur ness: not filling in immigration doc, not having a pen, fussing here and there..

Thankyou adrian, for making my first overSEAS trip a bearable one despite all that BAH external factors.

Tomorrow marks the first day of invigilation. hee>money money money..HEE.
Goodnight for now fellas.

2009-12-06T00:33:00.003+08:00

a ritual to (attempt to) blog consistently; im here once again (:

public transport travel time these two months >>> public transport travel time all these years.

Wouldn't it be so much better if all places starting with S occupied the same area on the map?
Then again, prolly having to travel the really long journey just to spend time with him, makes it all worthit at the end of the day.

Mahjong. My 2nd time sitting @ the table with the first and only person who used to try teach me the ropes. I think I'm hopeless at it. But it's really heartening to see how the game can really bring so many generations together-even a 2 year old can have fun counting the number of o on the tile, and messing ard with the money on the table while the adults finally decided to take a break.

Went for lisa's 21st party, followed by supper at old airport road. I love the feeling-of getting out of the car, enjoying the night breeze, and plonking right on some chair at the hawker. Prawn noodles and limejuice once again-how nostalgic!

On a leaving note, I will be going citysquare tomorrow! My first time holding my own passport. Guess what's more special? The person I'll be going with.

Stay tuned for more updates*
I am really looking forward to crossing the borders, even for a few hours <33

2009-12-04T19:14:00.009+08:00

at this point in time

im at adrian's place. he's playing WOW, while im enjoying the luxury of blogging the first post since the end of exams! (boy can u imagine how freee i feel now!)

went to crowne plaza for buffet yesterday night after the end of exams (:
ate @ azur. pretty cool place!
service0meter: 5/5
variety: 3.5/5
overall food: 3.5/5
atmosphere: 4/5

i guess i pretty much jacked up the above ratings by quite a bit: thanks to the great company, and the fact that exams were finally over! best thing of all, adrian actually drove all the way down to school to pick me up (: oh, and that reminds me-i saw a double rainbow right after the exam yesterday! u know how elated i was! like a super good sign.

anyway: post exam activities day one.

meant to head for sentosa today with the lovely, but bah. the skies just had to shower us with cats and dogs. haha! ended up going shopping @ vivo (: and guess what! i got myself two new dresses! whee. its like first two purchases in like a superlongwhile!! now, i lack shoes. i wanna go malaysia to shop-cos i heard theres like some kinda GSS type in malaysia. hmm-yah, GMS.

okay, thats all folks' ciao.

''i dont want to be a starter. i want to be a burner,''-guess who said this? heh, goggle dudettes.

oh and did i say? even if u google also cannot find. heheh.

2009-12-03T11:53:00.007+08:00

in a couple of hours

i will be hopping on 10, listening to my fav playlist on the ipod, and heading for my last paper.
the very much anticipated day-the last day of my exaams!
this feeling is strange: i'm looking forward to the exam later on, i think it's going to be a pretty fun paper-30%, very stiff competition, but im looking forward nonetheless!
really interesting module: management and organisation.

''Trust is the willingness to be vulnerable to somebody in an aspect which you think is important, without monitoring/controlling them.''

''A thing worth having, is a thing worth cheating for.''

''You have to be very patient. First, you will sit down a short distance away from me, like that, in the grass. I shall watch you out of the corner of my eye and you will say nothing; words are the source of misunderstanding. But each day, you may sit a little closer to me.''

''You become responsible for whatever you have tamed."

hee. i love the little prince, and i wonder why i never read the book in my earlier days. so gonna purchase a copy of the book, and make adrian read it for me-bedtime story (: heeee.

2009-12-02T10:11:00.005+08:00

My cousin helped me with the new blogskin.
Haha, super pinky and kiddy-
but well, it gives this really new, sweet and happy feeling; doesnt it? (:

and this reminds me once again how happy i feel.

today marks the 2nd month of being together with adrian.
just thinking bout the gift i received makes me smile all over again.
i super love my 2nd month gift! its like howw limited edition : ))
my best collection ever!

tracing back on the past happenings

joining the mc, having the time of my life (@ the expense of studies), and having to quit it cos of my work and travel usa-which i totally don't regret. and yes! im going there in MAY2010! (: what's better? adrian's going toooo!! and yuannn (:

finally getting licensed to drive on the 26thOctober, and crashing my dad's car on friday the 13th-November. I still find it hard to believe that i actually stepped on the accelerator instead of brake right outside my grandma's house, and caused a $2k damage repair, and a cut on adrian's neck-luckything recovered, otherwise i'd be so guilty for the rest of mylife!

okay, nuff recounts for the time being.
I shall be good and go study for my upcoming mno exam! (in like 38 hours or less time? heh!)

Growing up.

2009-11-26T16:24:00.004+08:00

A little something I found some day last year while I was waiting for my turn at the dental. I remember being very intrigued by it-and I still am.

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Growing up is a process of discovery, and it often begins with the unlikeliest of things.

I had always thought in my mind that everything would seem smaller as I grew bigger.

Things like my old chair, and that painting of horses on the bedroom wall-

they have all shrunk as I've grown-but growing up has blown the world into an unmanageable size instead.

Everything familiar around me had collapsed, and I was afraid.I found myself lost, lost, and smaller than I ever was.

I had struggled to stay afloat through this torrent of ideas, and things, and people-but there were too many directions, and too many possibilities.

The years passed, and I grew weary trying to work things out.

The colours were now dimmed, but the gloom had gradually dissipated as well.

With time, I had lost my worries, and subconsciously learnt to be happy again.

I found joy in lesser, seemingly inconsequential things like the evening breeze pressing up against my skin.

It was then I realised that I had grown again.

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I am thankful for my family, and the very important people in my life.

They have certainly made growing up a much bearable experience.

Share your thoughts on growing up? (:

2009-06-26T02:54:00.007+08:00

''THE CNMS"

NUS Communications & NewMedia CAMP 2009.

calling out for freshies, councilors, helpers!
drop us an email with your name/hp, or simply leave a tag if ure keen : D

help spread the word, thanks!

2009-06-26T00:35:00.009+08:00

love going out with them. all that gossipzchatswhatnots!

all that crazy changing room sharing and camwhoring

jiahui esp, look at her!
jerald, you know one of the pics' taken specially for you. HAHA! (:

love ching,super spontaneouss! :D

realised my blog's kinda un-picturefilled lately, so here's a picturesfilledpost update! (:

super tired frm all the mang-ing, but feels fulfilling somewhat.

with pictures,less words needed (:

2009-06-20T01:17:00.001+08:00

someday, you wont remember my name.

2009-06-12T00:53:00.002+08:00

Connor Mead: Someone once told me that the power in all relationships lies with whoever cares less, and he was right. But power isn't happiness, and I think that maybe happiness comes from caring more about people rather than less...

To me, marriage is an archaic and oppressive institution that should have been abolished years ago

I was always attracted to assholes! You know what I mean, project guys that I thought I could fix? After you left I made a vow to myself to date only fully functional, well adjusted men - no more works is progress, no dirtbags - basically women

"Love is magical comfort food for the weak and uneducated. Yeah, it makes you feel all warm and relevant but in the end it leaves you weak, dependant and fat!"

"You've got to risk love Sandra! I didn't and look at me, I'm a lonely ghost of a man. It doesn't mean that you're never going to get hurt but the pain you feel will never compare to the regret that comes from walking away'.

2009-06-10T21:18:00.004+08:00

hello little e-diary

Its been so long since I last updated you on my life-Supersuper happening it has been!

Haha! Let me try do a little recollection of the big events here and there

Right after the exams ended, we had our EEA chalet, which was really fun and relaxing

super contemplating making it an annual event! right right yuan ad rena ryan! haha : D

Right after EEA, became packed w loads of archery archery archery sessions

schools I taught at include

guang yang sec, ACSI, ACSJunior, YJC, geylang serai cc, beatty sec..etc!

(superluckyme right! was still cracking my head on how to earn some good bucks here & thr!)

and right after archery ended came invigilation! hehehs! (:

super happy that this time, i had ad and yuan working with me!

hee.

made many new friends during invig!

and catching someone w notes just upp-ed me a few levels lol

just as i thought things were gonna get a little boring

in betwn the work work work

managed to catch night at the museum2

the archery ppl had a stay over at my pl

trying out of the archery at suntec

wadelse!

ohya

michelle's 21st

huiqian's 21st upcoming (which i can't go cos of the last min trip)

guess what?

im heading for HK this sat! haha (:

shopshopshopshopshop! =)

more updates when i feel like it (:

2009-05-05T19:06:00.002+08:00

It's like some television program in which we frequently change channels to keep from getting bored.

The universe becomes a metaphysical theme park -- cosmic Disney -- and we are all enjoying a participatory adventure, on the ride of our lives.

Even the self ends up as nothing but a series of theme attractions.

If only it is a world in which little is demanded of us; in which the stakes of life aren't so large, and the consequences of action aren't so final.

Then again, if it is so, then reality wouldn't be so real anymore.

2009-05-05T12:36:00.005+08:00

it made her so happy i know (:
the songs are ringing in my head up to now. hahaha!

OH. and i just had to blog about this!

applied for an internship in HK like a month plus back, but dint hear from them at all.
and just an hour back, they called me!

that totally made my day. due to the many commitments in july, i had to give it up.

told mum about it, and she said, ahh dont worry. so many opportunities! okay, yes, and im so not gonna let the nxt oppor slip by! this is gonna be sooo cool : D

looking forward to 7thmay, and the soo many exciting things to do after! <3

mood: loved! ( if theres this jumpy jumpy icon, i will so put it up! ) hahaha.

2009-04-25T00:38:00.004+08:00

A: Practically speaking, what is the best kind of worker?

B: The best? Probably the one who-- who-- who is honest-- and dedicated.

A: No, it's the one that's the cheapest. The one with the fewest needs... [Young Rossum] chucked out everything not directly related to work, and [in] doing that he virtually rejected the human being and created the Robot.

Robots remember everything, and think of nothing new. "They'd make fine university professors." Rejecting A's theory that Robots have souls, the psychologist Hallemeier admits that once in a while, a Robot will throw down his work and start gnashing his teeth. The human managers treat such an event as evidence of a product defect, but A prefers to interpret it as a sign of the emerging soul.

B rather inexplicably asks A to marry him. She accepts, but continues working to help the Robots by requesting that a scientist modify some Robots, so that their souls might develop more fully. One of the modified creatures is a Robotess, beautiful but useless. The scientist speculates that if the Robotess (named after her spiritual mother A) were to "wake up," she would hate him for making her so beautiful, yet giving her a body that cannot know love or give birth.

hahaha. okay. new motivation(s)! keep going keep going.

2009-04-20T22:52:00.002+08:00

I am here to tell you we can never meet again

Simple really, isn’t it, a word or two and then

A lifetime of not knowing where or how or why or when

You think of me, or speak of me, or wonder what befell

The someone you once loved so long ago, so well

Never wonder what I’ll feel as living shuffles by

You don’t have to ask me and I need not reply

Every moment of my life from now until I die

I will think or dream of you and fail to understand

How a perfect love can be confounded out of hand

Is it written in the stars

Are we paying for some crime

Is that all that we are good for

Just a stretch of mortal time

Is this God’s experiment

In which we have no say

In which we’re given paradise

But only for a day

Nothing can be altered, oh, there is nothing to decide

No escape, no change of heart, no any place to hide

You are all I’ll ever want but this I am denyin’

Sometimes in my darkest thoughts I wish I never learned

What it is to be in love and have that love returned

Is it written in the stars

Are we paying for some crime

Is that all that we are good for

Just a stretch of mortal time

Is this God’s experiment {God's experiment}

In which we have no say {In which we have now say}

In which we’re given paradise {If only for a day}

But only for a day

{Is it written in the stars}{Are we paying for some crime}{Is that all that we are good for}{Just a stretch of mortal time}Is this God’s experiment {God's experiment}In which we have no say {In which we have now say}In which we’re given paradise {If only for a day}But only for a day

2009-04-20T00:30:00.002+08:00

hahaha

the ultimate elites party. only someone like YOU can think that up

nevertheless, looking forward (:

all the rules.
hahaha,funny

supergladforfriendslikeyou.
i AM super blessed.

*contemplating. should i should i should i not?

When you're young everything feels like the end of the world. But it's not, It's just the beginning.

2009-04-09T23:37:00.000+08:00

one of the keys to happiness, is a bad memory.

2009-03-11T23:55:00.002+08:00

Love. Fall in love, if you aren’t already. If you have, fall in love with your partner all over again. Abandon caution and let your heart be broken. Or love family members, friends, anyone — it doesn’t have to be romantic love. Love all of humanity, one person at a time.

Get outside. Don’t let yourself be shut indoors. Go out when it’s raining. Walk on the beach. Hike through the woods. Swim in a freezing lake. Bask in the sun. Play sports, or walk barefoot through grass. Pay close attention to nature.

Savor food. Don’t just eat your food, really enjoy it. Feel the texture, the bursts of flavors. Savor every bite. If you limit your intake of sweets, it will make the small treats you give yourself even more enjoyable. Savor them slowly.

Create a morning ritual. Wake early and greet the day. Watch the sun rise. Tell yourself OUT LOUD that you will not waste this day, which is a gift. You will be compassionate to your fellow human beings, and live every moment to its fullest. Stretch or meditate or exercise as part of your ritual. Enjoy some coffee.

Take chances. We often live our lives too cautiously, worrying about everything that might go wrong. Be bold, risk it all. Quit your job and go into business for yourself, or go up to that girl you’ve liked for a long time and ask her out. What do you have to lose?

Follow excitement. Try to find the things in life that excite you, and then go after them. Make life one exciting adventure after another (with perhaps some quiet times in between).

Find your passion. Similar to the above tip, this one asks you to find your calling. Make your living by doing the thing you love to do. First, think about what you really love to do. There may be many things. Find out how you can make a living doing it. It may be difficult, but you only live once.

Get out of your cubicle. Do you sit all day in front of computer, shuffling papers and taking phone calls and chatting on the Internet? Don’t waste your days like this. Break free from the cubicle environment, and do your work on a laptop, in a coffee shop, or on a boat, or in a log cabin. This may require a change of jobs, or becoming a freelancer. It’s worth it.

Turn off the TV. How many hours will we waste away in front of the boob tube? How many hours do we have to live? Do the math, then unplug the TV. Only plug it back in when you have a DVD of a movie you love. Otherwise, keep it off and find other stuff to do. Don’t know what to do? Read further.

Pull away from the Internet. You’re reading something on the Internet right now. And, with the exception of this article, it is waste of your precious time. You cannot get these minutes back. Unplug the Internet, then get out of your office or house. Right now! Go and do something different!

Travel. Sure you want to travel some day. When you have vacation time, or when you’re older. Well, what are you waiting for? Find a way to take a trip, if not this month, then sometime soon. You may need to sell your car or stop your cable bill and stop eating out to do it, but make it happen. You are too young to not see the world. If need be, find a way to make a living by freelancing, then work while you travel. Only work an hour or two a day. Don’t check email but once a week. Then use the rest of the time to see the world.

Rediscover what’s important. Take an hour and make a list of things that’s important to you. Add to it everything that you want to do in life. Now cut that list down to 4-5 things, the most important things in your life. This is your core list. This is what matters. Focus your life on these things. Make time for them.

Eliminate everything else. What’s going on in your life that’s not on that short list? All that stuff is wasting your time, pulling your attention from what’s important. As much as possible, simplify your life by eliminating the stuff that’s not on your short list, or minimizing it.

Exercise. Get off the couch and go for a walk. Eventually try running. Or do some push ups and crunches. Or swim or bike or row. Or go for a hike. Whatever you do, get active, and you’ll love it. And life will be more alive.

Be positive. Learn to recognize the negative thoughts you have. These are the self-doubts, the criticisms of others, the complaints, the reasons you can’t do something. Then stop yourself when you have these thoughts, and replace them with positive thoughts and simple solutions. You can do this!

Open your heart. Is your heart a closed bundle of scar tissue? Learn to open it, ready to receive love, to give love unconditionally. If you have a problem with this, talk to someone about it. And practice makes perfect.

Kiss in the rain. Seize the moment and be romantic. Raining outside? Grab your lover and give her a passionate kiss. Driving home? Stop the car and pick some wildflowers. Send her a love note. Dress sexy for him.

Face your fears. What are you most afraid of? What is holding you back? Whatever it is, recognize it, and face it. Do what you are most afraid of. Afraid of heights? Go to the tallest building, and look down over the edge. Only by facing our fears can we be free of them.
When you suffer, do it up BIG. Life isn’t all about fun and games. Suffering is an inevitable part of life. We lose our jobs. We lose our lovers. We lose our pets. We get physically injured or sick. A loved one becomes sick. A parent dies. Learn to feel the pain intensely, and really grieve. This is a part of life, and when you’re done, move on, and find joy.

Slow down. Life moves along at such a rapid pace these days. It’s not healthy, and it’s not conducive to living. Practice doing everything slowly — everything, from eating to walking to driving to working to reading. Enjoy what you do. Learn to move at a snail’s pace.

Touch humanity. Get out of your house and neighborhood, and find those who live in different types of conditions. Meet them, talk to them, understand them. Live among them. Be one of them. Give up your materialistic lifestyle.

Volunteer. Help at homeless soup kitchens. Learn compassion, and learn to help ease the suffering of others. Help the sick, those with disabilities, those who are dying.

Play with children. Children, more than anyone else, know how to live. They experience everything in the moment, fully. When they get hurt, they really cry. When they play, they really have fun. Learn from them, instead of thinking you know so much more than them. Play with them, and learn to be joyful like them.

Talk to your elders. There is no one wiser, more experienced, more learned, than those who have lived most of their lives. They can tell you amazing stories, give you advice on making a marriage last or staying out of debt. Tell you about their regrets, so you can learn from them and avoid the same mistakes. They are the wisdom of our society — take advantage of their presence while they’re still here.

Learn new skills. Constantly improve yourself instead of standing still — not because you’re so imperfect now, but because it is gratifying and satisfying. You should accept yourself as you are, and learn to love who you are, but still try to improve — if only because the process of improvement is life itself.

Find spirituality. For some, this means finding God or Jesus or Allah or Buddha. For others, this means communing with the spirits of our ancestors, or with nature. For still others, this just means an inner energy. Whatever spirituality means for you, rediscover it, and its power.

Take mini-retirements. Don’t leave the joy of retirement until you are too old to enjoy it. Do it now, while you’re young. It makes working that much more worth it. Find ways to take a year off every few years. Save up, sell your home, your possessions, and travel. Live simply, but live, without having to work. Enjoy life, then go back to work and save up enough money to do it again in a couple of years.

Do nothing. There is value in doing nothing as well. Learn to be still, in silence, to hear your inner voice and be in tune with your life. Do this daily if possible.

Watch sunsets daily. Sunset is the most beautiful time of each day. Make it a daily ritual to find a good spot to watch the sunset, perhaps during a light dinner.

Stop reading magazines. Most are basically crap. And they waste your time and money. Cancel your subscriptions and walk past them at the news stands.

Break out of your rut. Do you do things the same way every day? Change it up. Try something new. Take a different route to work. Start your day out differently. Approach work from a new angle. Look at things from new perspectives.

Stop watching the news. It’s depressing and useless. If you’re a news junky, this may be difficult. I haven’t watch TV news or read a newspaper regularly in about two years. It hasn’t hurt me a bit. Anything important, my husband tells me about.

Laugh till you cry. Laughing is one of the best ways to feel fully alive. Tell jokes and laugh your head off. Watch an awesome comedy. Learn to laugh at anything. Roll on the ground laughing. You’ll love it.

Lose control. Not only control over yourself, but the illusion of control over others. It’s a bad habit to try to control others — it will only lead to stress and unhappiness for yourself and others. Let others live, and live for yourself. And lose control of yourself now and then too.

Cry. Men, especially, tend to hold in their tears, but crying is an amazing release. Cry at sad movies. Cry at a funeral. Cry when you are hurt, or when somebody you love is hurt. It releases all kinds of emotions and allows us to cleanse ourselves.

Make an awesome dessert. Berries dipped in chocolate, or crepes with ice cream and fruit, or fresh apple pie, or homemade chocolate chip cookies or brownies, are great. This isn’t an every day thing, but an occasional treat. It’s wonderful.

Try something new every week. Ask yourself: “What new thing shall I try this week?” Then be sure to do it. You don’t have to learn a new language in one week, but seek new experiences. Give it a try. You might decide you want to keep it in your life.

Be in the moment. Instead of thinking about things you need to do, or things that have happened to you, or worrying or planning or regretting, think about what you are doing, right now. What is around you? What smells and sounds and sights and feelings are you experiencing? Learn to do this as much as possible through meditation, but also through bringing your focus back to the present as much as you can in everything you do.

Something really meaningful: I'm gonna try practising this everytime i feel like im meeting with a midlifecrisis. Just 21 and i think im already halfway through lol!

nus-where's the welfare!

2009-02-22T11:39:00.002+08:00

my past week's been sooo hectic; the many 2am nights, with silas waiting up for me

sucha relief, now that the recess week is here

nevertheless,its gonna be one very busy/exciting one, having to manage one extra class, an SOE interview, upcoming bazaar, and my upcoming casino de la baie <3 ! and of cus, not forgetting having to study for my the upcoming nm2102, It1004, ec2303,2102 tests!

thats quite a handful packed in a week! nevertheless, its gonna be great, i just know it! (:

ps,blades to be settled! hints*dear! we must settle by this week okay! im super excited bout it!

and just to type a little more, caught slumdog millionaire!
it's a good show, not the usual guy falls in love with girl-happily ever after plot

so makes me think that I can do well in a who-wants-to-be-a-millionaire-show
If all the questions asked happen to be part of my 20years of life experience
haha!

nikki millionaire, what say you! (:

2009-02-16T22:18:00.003+08:00

been more than a month since I last touched my love,sunshine & happiness virtually

perhaps its time to display some virtual love,sunshine & happiness

been a really busyyy start of sem

with six modules, life's crazyfor me

a really fantastic DnD

heartwarming newyear

-thats like the two greatest bits of january-

and just recently, i had my first driving lesson-it was awesomely woww (:

makes me so wanna change all the school lessons to driving lessons, perhaps life would be so much better that way
haha,but nahh-maybe not

and yes, vday was fabulous,the greatest,ever (:

and what's the greatest for this month?

planningforthebigg21 (:

other than that, i will be greeted with assignments day in/out

hello assignments. hello deadlines : /

2008-12-05T21:59:00.007+08:00

Away from her

very touching
real love.
He stood by her through everything. everythingg.

isn't it true, however far we have wandered into our provinces of persecution
where our regrets accuse
we keep returning to the common faith from which we've all descended
back to the hands, the feet, the faces
children are always there, and take the hands
even when they are most terrified

those in love, cannot make up their minds, whether to go or stay
artist and doctor return most often
only the mad will never, ever come back
for doctors keep on worrying while away
in case their skill is suffering and deserted

Lovers have lived so long, with giants and elves, they want belief again
in their own size
and the artist prays ever so gently` let me find pure, in all that can happen

Only uniqueness is success
for instances, let me perceive the images of history
all that i push away with doubt and travel

The desires of the heart, are as crooked as corkscrews, not to be borne, as the best for man
The second best is a formal order, the dance's pattern. Dance while u can
Dance dance, for the figure is easy
The tune is catchy, and will not stop
Dance till the stars come down from the rafters
Dance dance dance, till ure drunk

"What'd u say if we got married for fun?"
"I'd gladly take u on"
She has a spark of lifee.

"You could have just driven away. Driven away, without a care in the world, and forsook me. Forooken me.
Forsaken."
-Not a chance-

2008-12-01T22:46:00.000+08:00

reminiscing.. (:

and making myself happy and energised nuff b4 i embark on 2219 :D

2008-11-30T10:48:00.003+08:00

29november2008

was absolutely fabulous and totally memorable
had gek1006 exam in the morning-an exam worth 60%
but everything felt so perfect

from silas making me the really full of ai xin zao can
to him driving me to school
and picking me up there after
to going CA for frankenstein mudpie and gr8 ribs and the lovefilled convo
to picking gm up for flea
to every little word and action at flea
everythingeverything
PERFECT (:
happinessss : D

the xin fu feeling, of having not only the many loved ones arnd me, but having cashhhh.
( if only everything i touch turns to gold. LOL! with the exception of all my loved ones. cos what's money without them all (: )

2008-11-28T23:00:00.001+08:00

dreaming of the midas touch

looking forward to tomorrow
and even more so to 031208, and of cus, 051208!

2008-11-27T15:54:00.004+08:00

[I've looked for love in stranger places,But never found someone like you.

Someone whose smile makes me feel I've been holding back,And now there's nothing I can't do.'

Cause this is real, and this is good.It warms the inside just like it should,But most of all it's built to last.All of our friends saw from the start.So why didn't we believe it too?Whoa yeah, now look where you are.You're in my heart now.And there's no escaping it for you.

'Cause this is real, and this is good.It warms the inside just like it should,But most of all it's built to last.Walking on the hills that night with those fireworks and candlelightYou and I were made to get love right'Cause this is real, and this is good.It warms the inside just like it should,But most of all it's built to last.'Cause you are the sun in my universe,Considered the best when we've felt the worstAnd most of all it's built to last. ]

recalling how this song was playing on radio, and you told me not to change station

and how lovely sunday went (:

2008-11-23T18:12:00.003+08:00

song by JJ

chim title, but reallynice

first chinese song im sharing in my blog i believe!
meaningful lyrics (:

落叶堆积了好几层
而我踩过青春
听见,前世谁在泪语纷纷

一次缘份结一次绳
我今生还在等
一世就只能有一次的认真

确认过眼神我遇上对的人
我挥剑转身而鲜血如红唇
前朝记忆渡红尘伤人的不是刀刃
是你转世而来的魂

确认过眼神我遇上对的人
我策马出征马蹄声如雷奔
青石板上的月光照进这山城
我一路的跟一路回声我对你用情极深

洛阳城旁的老树根
像回忆般延伸
你问经过是谁的心跳声
我拿醇酒一坛饮恨
你那千年眼神
是我醉醉坠入赤壁的伤痕

确认过眼神我遇上对的人
我挥剑转身而鲜血如红唇
前朝记忆渡红尘伤人的不是刀刃
是你转世而来的魂

确认过眼神我遇上对的人
我策马出征马蹄声如雷奔
青石板上的月光照进这山城
我一路的跟一路回声我对你用情极深

确认过眼神我遇上对的人
我策马出征马蹄声如雷奔
青石板上的月光照进这山城
我一路的跟一路回声我对你用情极深
我一路的跟一路回声我对你用情极深

2008-11-21T14:29:00.003+08:00

The Adventurer (the Seven)

Adventurers are energetic, lively, and optimistic. They want to contribute to the world.

How to Get Along with Me

Give me companionship, affection, and freedom.
Engage with me in stimulating conversation and laughter.
Appreciate my grand visions and listen to my stories.
Don't try to change my style. Accept me the way I am.
Be responsible for youself. I dislike clingy or needy people.
Don't tell me what to do.

What I Like About Being a Seven

being optimistic and not letting life's troubles get me down
being spontaneous and free-spirited
being outspoken and outrageous. It's part of the fun.
being generous and trying to make the world a better place
having the guts to take risks and to try exciting adventures
having such varied interests and abilities

What's Hard About Being a Seven

not having enough time to do all the things I want
not completing things I start
not being able to profit from the benefits that come from specializing; not making a commitment to a career
having a tendency to be ungrounded; getting lost in plans or fantasies
feeling confined when I'm in a one-to-one relationship

Sevens as Children Often

are action oriented and adventuresome
drum up excitement
prefer being with other children to being alone
finesse their way around adults
dream of the freedom they'll have when they grow up

Sevens as Parents

are often enthusiastic and generous
want their children to be exposed to many adventures in life
may be too busy with their own activities to be attentive

2008-11-18T15:20:00.005+08:00

decided to leave an entry, so that when i look back, i can smile over yesterday once more (:

17.11.2008

"walletno$!"
------------

javachipfrau pls.
w whip cream?
yups! (:

hey miss, guess what! starbuck's having a promotion and because ure the 100th customer, you get it absolutely free! (:

-stunned-omgDEAR!

handsmethedrink*

to top that up, here's a free gift to go with ur drink!

Ahhhhh! : )))

dear's so sweeeet! loveethegiftsosuperultrammucchh! :D

2008-11-14T01:05:00.002+08:00

HSM3 - Can I Have This Dance? (OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO) - Zac Efron & Vanessa Hudgens

Take my hand, take a breath

Pull me close and take one step

Keep your eyes locked on mine

And let the music be your guide.

Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)

We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next(chorus)

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you

It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do

And with every step together, we just keep on getting better

So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)

Can I have this dance

Take my hand, I'll take the lead

And every turn will be safe with me

Don't be afraid, afraid to fall

You know I'll catch you threw it all

And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)

Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you

It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do

And with every step together, we just keep on getting better

So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)

Can I have this dance

Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide'

Cause together or not, our dance won't stop

Let it rain, let it pour

What we have is worth fighting for

You know I believe, that we were meant to be

It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)

It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)

And with every step together, we just keep on getting better

So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)

Can I have this dance

2008-10-29T21:26:00.002+08:00

"every generation blames the one before
and all of their frustrations come beating on your door
i know that im a prisoner to all my father held so dear
i know that im a hostage to all his hopes and fears

more crumpled bits of papr filled with imperfect thoughts
stilted conversations im afraid that's all we've got
you say you just don't see it, he sayts its perfect sense
you just can't get aggrement in this present tense
we all talk a different language, talking in defense

say it loud, say it clear, you can listen as well as you hear
it's too late when we die to admit we don't see eye to eye

so we open up a quarrel between the present and the past
we only sacrifice the future, it's the bitterness that lasts
so don't yeld to the fortunes you sometimes see as fate
it may have a new perspective on a different date
and if you don't give up and don't give in you may just be okay

i wasn't there that morning when my father passed away
i din't get to tell him all the things i had to say
but i think i caught its spirit later that same year
i'm sure i heard his echo in my baby's new born tears
i just wish i could have told him in the living years"

learnt this at gek tutorial today
really reflected on my own family
just sent an email to both my dad/mum
couldnt stop tearing ( do not know if its tears of guilt, or purely cos i touched myself with my own act )

nevertheless,felt good telling them how much i love them
let your family know that you love them too, now!
cos' you never know what's gonna happen next (:

2008-10-29T20:59:00.001+08:00

You Are An ENFP

The Inspirer

You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends.

You are also unconventional, irreverent, and unimpressed by authority.

Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives.

You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're quite the storyteller!

In love, you are quite the charmer. And you are definitely willing to risk your heart.

You often don't follow through with your flirting or professed feelings. You break a lot of hearts.

At work, you are driven but not a workaholic. You just always seem to enjoy what you do.

You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

How you see yourself: compassionate, unselfish, and understanding

When other people don't get you, they see you as: gushy, emotional, and unfocused

What's Your Personality Type?

saw this on liwei's blog, and decided to have a go at it. hmm! pretty trueeeee,esp after googling on ENFP and reading more on it. have a go! (:

2008-10-29T10:05:00.004+08:00

28th october
archery at scgs today

the two groups i took for both sessions were really ting hua, though quite cheeky too

really happy with myself, how i tried to hype them despite feeling so tired myself from waking at 4.45 am

and really glad at how they reciprocated with all that enthusiasm (:

chilled out with liwei & andy in the evening

it was really grt to catch up with them on their lives and everything

realised liwei hasn't really changed much since the good ole'days, but one prominent change was that she has become soo much more confident of herself! and im really very happy for her! (: so much we had to talk! so much was said, so much un-said too ( reasons4another meetup! ) haa!

to liwei: stay sweeet & happy with him! (:

to andy: slow & steady yeah! : D

*17 hours to silas' return! yayy! : )))

2008-10-21T17:56:00.001+08:00

had my first fac at st hilda's sec yest, making a difference II. was pretty alright, cept for the really painful heels! looking forward to the nxt course nevertheless! today,took toa payoh new town sec2 for archery. took the "paikias",in this fellow colleague's words. i think they only act pai,they are actually really very nicee people, if not for all that spewing of vulgarities image they portray. pity im not teaching tmr, would love to see them again.

2008-10-14T16:43:00.003+08:00

here to blog about my lovely sunday.

how it started and ended on sucha grt note all the same! (:

met up with sandy,jiahui,yanleng for a picnic, and a surprise bday celebration for our dear girl, who's bday celebration was ultra ultra belated!

so happy that she was surprised and touched all the same!

and so, our sunday started off with shopping for picnic stuffs at siglapcentre,b4 we headed for mg, and then the beach! (:
the little surprise we had for jh at mg: (shall upload some pics soon!)
happy that she's happy! (in every sense! you know la hor!) hehs.

anywaes, picnic at the beach was fabulous-all that really heart to heart talks..im so glad having known them in the first three months, and may our frenship last forever! : D and of cos, im soo glad all 3 of them think that way!
how we reminisced the past..and went on and on bout our present lives..admist a little game of UNO and many crazy photo-takings and attempts to take jump-shots!
pity yan leng couldnt stay for the entire time, but im really happy she forked out the max time she could! hehs (:

day ended with a shower back at mg, and dinner and shopping with ching! and how we walked from pp all the way back to mg! was showing her the darling-route. haha!

and ohya,of cos, my day wouldnt have been so perfect if not for the phone call from YOU! recept's terrible as always, but hmmm! im sooooo happy just hearing you! 16! : D

p.s looking for the nxt steambath session with the girls: and yanleng, if ure reading this, YES! sandy's gonna plan the nxt one! steam & more! : D

heartallofyou,and of cus,mr-wallaby, you toooo!

halloween party,anyone!

2008-10-07T11:23:00.003+08:00

been a whole 2 months and more since i last blogged! haha, life's been crazy for the whole of 2 months-both the ups, and the downs. the ups-wow, totally unbelievable, and thinking back-dreamlike.

i'd never view bugis in the same light everagain. intercontinental, haha! (smiles to myself)

so much to blog, but i guess those close to me will know enuff to even blog for me, so we shall skip the whole chunk in the whole of aug, sept! (:

looking forward to october, pretty much a self-packed month for me!
meeting with the ibm ladies tonight-our much procrastinated meetup! (materialising! haa!)
broadcast tmr,pretty much looking forward to it too! hehs.
and sat: most prob gonna pei my dearest go shop for her shorts
and sunday: picnic cum bbq w ching,san and most prob, yl! sooo looking forward! ; D

and looking even more forward, there's archery, many many, and a HA facilitation to look forward to! : D

come 30th, hurry, come that weekend!

ohh! and how could i forget. when it was the purpose of this post of mine: CONGRATS CHING!!! (: gonna qc with the panel-soon!

2008-08-01T12:38:00.007+08:00

mao mao mia (:

instructors at st nicks E6 cluster meet (:
psbff(:

really long since i last had an entry here (:

gonna type one at hj's request-be honoured girl! (:

hmm,been really busyybussy of late.

archery day in and out.

schools i had been teaching at for the past weeks include:
East view sec, Cedar girls sec sch, Kuo Chuan Pres, Commonwealth Sec, Innova Junior College

Last fri, De wei & I were at St Nic's for their E6 cluster school meet fun fair. Funny how some of the students really cannot take instructions-like "close your left eye,aim with ur right"- and they close both eyes. or close right eye and attempt aiming with right eye. "pull moree, till the end of the arrow is right infront of your right eye." *nods head* pulls till arrow way past eye, till ear, and turns back to aim when board is right in front. (stress! both me, and the kids.)

lol. makes me think sometimes, like hey, did i use to be like that too? holyshitt!

Nevertheless, teaching the kids and interacting with them really make me really happy- esp. when i see results in their grouping/form/hitting of the bull's eye- really makes my efforts all worthwhile (:

looking at a few of them jump and telling me "instructor instructor! lookk!!! bull's eye!" or simply a thank-you from the kids, or "instructor, i wana further pursue archery, really like it!" really never fail to make my every-day for the past two months (:

examining the cedarians on monday really made me smile from deep within-like how much they have improved over the one month. Although i was pretty lenient with those under me, it was only so simply because i have seen how much effort they had put in thru the weeks; and how much i know they really deserve a good grading (: (3 arrows for grading is really nth compared to 4 weeks of training, really.)

the mad rush having to toggle b/w archery and piano made me feel somewhat frustrated and burnt at some points of the week.

sometimes, it makes me wunder why on earth am i pia-ing so hard.

but at the end of the day, being appreciated really makes everything feel so much better (:

p.s im preparing laura for her grade 2 exam, so happy (:
how she started off with not knowing anything about piano, to preparing "wonderful tonight" for her examination..smiles*

Feel really happy when she tells me bout how she discusses with her friends about piano and her friends are envious that she gets a pop-song for her examination piece.

The happiness stems from how much I have stirred her interest in piano..

which is of my top priority in teaching her

(: Always believe that both her enthusiasm and positive attitue, can keep her going,

a long long way.

Admist all that hectic schedule, met up with the usual clique jiahui,sandy,yanleng,xuxiao two weeks back (: this time, the difference was I had him with me. and I'm really happy at how he bonded so well with them. How he could care for me so much, not only when we spend time alone, even with my friends there : )) he loves them, and they love him tooo (:

meetupwith my prischbestie

Dinner, gossips, catchup with her was really heartwarming (:
realised how much we still had in common. how much i still loved her company (:

how silly we both still be, talking about the good ole'days

how mummy-like she is

(triples on sunday! abit of excitement,abita fear. abita anticipation!)

cnm outing at shokudo
seems like the really hot place for all big grp uni gatherings!

lol. talking about cnm outing; i realised i hadn't blogged bout my cnm camp.

it was really really cool, the ppl, the games, the fun. bottomline-i really really enjoyed myself! (:

Friendships-priceless.

How everyone bonded so quickly and how the 3 days seemed to fly.

And yes, I'll be back next year : D

p.s thankyou joc and jiayang for the video!~

channelnewsasia

the usual working buddies- adrian,andrew,tommy

the most recent event, we had two new ppl.

made working for me a whole new experience. lols (:

refreshing (:

oweek

its finally here. but i had to miss two days of activites of cold,cough,fever.

zzz.

can't wait to meet all of you again on monday (:

for the timebeing, its medicine, dvds and naps (:

caught A walk to remember, and still in d midst of catching a lot like LOVE.

really sweeet movies (:

a takeaway from a walk to remember:

" Honestly, if you are not willing to sound stupid, you do not deserve to be in love."

catchy, sweet.

Maybe it's everything we're dreaming of

We've waited long enough

It's gonna be love

It's gonna be great

It's gonna be more than I can take

It's gonna be free It's gonna be real
It's gonna change everything I feel

2008-07-23T02:56:00.002+08:00

i feel like crap nw.

2.57am but im still online, feverishly trying to get my surveys done.
seeked help from ppl online, and 2 nice ppl helped me out-thanks teck and de wei (:

really wanna thank ellse for her help too. and her bf of cus-but i really had no heart to continue with the survey. after that one question i asked; and got an answer which left me stumped and sarky and feeling shitty times a billion.

i hate how vulnerable life is. esp after reading the blog of this perfect stranger who's messy life i accidentally entered. i give up on that $25 x 5.

meant to blog yesterday.

how a tube of meiji chocolate brought me this sudden realisation.
tht smth which had been so taken granted by me, could actually be so wonderful to someone else.

sometimes, i really wished i had some sorta superhero powers to help the weak, poor, less fortunate. moneyymoneyy. how it works wonders. yes, its not everything; theres more to living than that. nevertheless, its vvv impt in this stupid materialistic world. tell me otherwise.

to sum is up:
i really feel very lucky. i dun mind doing an exchange.
to let them experience a day in my life.
hopefully, experiencing a day in their lives can allow me to treasure what i have more.

NEshow (:

2008-07-06T14:48:00.007+08:00

the background is like,drawn (:

5th July

heart breakfast (:

the most ideal breakfast ever,another dream breakfast (:

NE show 2008

definitely enjoyed it (:

heart the fireworks alot.

the feeling throughout was very good.

thankyou for not rushing me,and for making me feeel so comfortablee

the many primary 5 students there certainly aided in bringing back many swtmemories (:

4th July

stjohn's bbq.

met up with the ppl

whom i havent met up with in years (:

how much i got reminded of the old times.

how much we catched up on

and it suddenly dawned on me how much we havent really changed at all

(though the years might have caught up with us)

i was secretly glad

at how our friendships could withstand the test of time.

for a moment, i felt really fortunate again

simply having them in my life.

Friendsforlife (:

2008-07-02T00:36:00.007+08:00

arts camp 2008

to put it across simply-

It bonded us. it strengthened our friendships (:

Amidst making new friends, each and everyone of us knew that we had each other there,

whenever,wherever.

It's that sudden re-realisation of how blessed I am.

thank god for close friends.

yuan,adrian,junyue,belinda,zhen,ryan,ben,cindy,sandy,jiahui,xuxiao,yanleng,jieyin

and to the others not named,

you guys matter.

to you:

thankyou.

for neverfailing to make me smile like crazyy (:

for that sweetness,sincerity, and security.

for being accomodating (:

always feel very comfortable with you.

hee.

I decided long ago

Never to walk in anyone's shadow

If I fail, if I succeed

At least I lived as I believe

No matter what they take from me

They can't take away my dignity

Because the greatest love of all

Is happening to me

I found the greatest love of all inside of me

The greatest love of all

Is easy to achieve

Learning to love yourself

Is the greatest love of all

love my family, my friends, you, myself (:

I've dreamt of this a thousand times before

2008-06-22T11:25:00.007+08:00

met up with my dearest ching on friday.

still lovee her as much as when i first knew her!

never an awkward moment w her (:

thankyou for sucha grt evening! (REALLYREALLY looking 4ward to moreee aft my camp!)

SATURDAY

my saturday, is definitely not one of ur usual saturdays (:

so many first times this day (:

cant believe how much i can fall in love with so many placess

cant believe how making an empty trip to suntec convention can be so amazing

cant believe how good it feels being fussed over

cant believe how exciting a bus ride could be

cant believe how cereal prawns can taste soooo unbelieveably good

cant believe how having part1-part2 can be so lovely

cant believe how i can feel so soo good despite being soo worn out

cant believe how you unknowingly made yet another of my dreams come truee

cant believe how a trip to candy empire,ntuc and breadtalk could be so endearing

cant believe how making rounds in t3-t2 could be so tiring yet all so worth it

/simply cannot believe how muchh we have in common.

8 years.

and i never knew u used to sail the seas

while u never knew i used to sing like singgg

how we were always sidebyside, (less the times i chose hj over u!)

yet not knowing anything bout the other

the effort you put into cramming ur driving lessons touches meee as muchh as ur thoughtfullness.

still looking forward to unveiling moreeee each day (:

14th June 2008

2008-06-15T16:25:00.003+08:00

i feel sucha strong need to blog for 14th june 2008

how a mere 5.5 hours could do miracles to my dayy.

when i saw the mercs at the turnstill gate

to giving test trials

to actually getting on

to getting thru miles

to catching the sunset

to waching the stars come out

to fixing the unforseeen blotch

to joining 2 special ppl for dinner

to "please do not spoil the turnstill gate"

to getting to drive the mercs

to having that really heartwarming container of filtered goodies

i had a wonderful day that i just had to blog about.

not that 28th may 2008 wasnt special. not that 8th June wasnt special.

deep down, i knoww im livingggg, living this one day of untold dreammm (:

happinesss (:

2008-06-11T20:51:00.002+08:00

had been ultraaaa busy of late (:

zoo,nightsafari,monopoly,bingo,manyyyy jobsss,shopppinngg,archeryy,pianooo,manyy new friends,many camps, many new experienceesss (:

inshort,im enjoying my life now,despite the REAL fatique!

to all the ppl who have played a part in my lifeee,love you alll (:

p.s night venture,wont forget in a long time coming :X
haha, in order- junyue,cindy,me,adrian,ryan (:

p.s i love working with yuan.

p.s i love being tired out.
it somewhat means that i had lived a day fully, using up every lil ounce of energy (:

2008-05-30T19:48:00.002+08:00

so on off.

2008-05-27T18:13:00.001+08:00

archery (:

2008-05-20T14:45:00.003+08:00

archery at geylang serai cc

today,we taught 60 plus students from evergreen sec,think its in woodlands, but the kids came all the way down to the east. (oh, and its 90% malay,10% chi)

instructors today: jia han, frank, free-willy & myself.

pretty gd time today for me, scolding the kids was a good de-stress avenue for me.

for me, if i dun scold the kids, i get scolded. so freaky.

so well-scold them when they carry the arrows and move arnd the place.

scold them when they do not listen to your instructions.

scold them when they tilt the bows horizontally and swing it arnd.

scold them when they want to pick their fav colored arrow.

scold them when they dun put one leg behind the line, and the other infront.

scold them scold them, just scold them.

thats the job of the instructor.

nevertheless,i still think im nt strict enuf or smth.

after the course, mr chan gave us a lunch treat. guess he's feeling rather generous today-with all that free drinks and food. haha (:

hmm,if i cant find a job,archery it shall be.rather good income anywaes.and mr chan alr promised me that i need not do the saigang. so yeas (:

ms.bankrupt

2008-05-19T21:52:00.002+08:00

my mind is sorta in a swirl.

shall blog bout the past 2 days.

caught drillbit taylor,pretty cool comedy.nuff'said. haha

went to pray w gm today,vesakday..aft which i met ad and went to j8.

we had thai exp. for lunch. felt sarky after arcade,sorry ad,appreciate ur efforts nvtheless,really!

back home, had steamboat.

after that, it was the 2nd epi of monopoly.
this time arnd,hell man, i mortaged 10 of my houses, and still dint have nuff' money to pay my sis' rent of 1.1k.

later on, she spared me, but i still had to pay hospital bills of $100. that sarkily got me kicked out of the game with the honourable title-BANKRUPT.sien!!!

2008-05-17T19:55:00.002+08:00

(:

my long overdue freedom is finally here.
you have done all that i never had the heart to, for that, thankyou.

all the best in what lies ahead, for you, and for me.

no hard feelings,just what a pity.
nevertheless, it had been grt while it lasted, maybe not the entire 32 months, but yes, the happy moments, i will remember for a long time to come.

p.s dear friends, i have deleted my friendster account, which brings me nothing but bad memories.
even so, am still alive on facebook, so see you there (:

clarkequay outing (:

2008-05-16T01:35:00.009+08:00

went for dinner at clarke quay with the ssb proj ppl (huiqing,junwei,zhida,ad,qianli)

this outing was planned by ql,thank you man for that amidst ur busy schedule (:

i cant remembr the name of the jap rest,but all i know is we paid bout $27 per person. haha,nice ambience (:

after food,we went to the supermarket and there, we bought sparkles! : )) i so love such fun*.

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeessssss (: if only u liked such kiddyfun too.

: D

2008-05-14T11:18:00.003+08:00

yest, was the first sport in the longest time for me,and quite a few of them too i guess! lol
played bball with the many ppl who braved the distance and made it to my place yest.
[yuan,zhen,ben,ryan,ad,jun yue & bro,zikang]

aft bball,we went for a quick shower at the clubhouse b4 they all came up to my place (:
mum invited all of them up for lunch,haha, she surprised me! secretly happy*

haha! after lunch, we proceeded to pp for the usual dosage of arcade games.
yuan and i did this couple shooting, and our compatibitly was 35%! happy for that, shows tt we arent les! lols.
after that, we even sat the stimulator rollercoaster-gave me a headache and some luffing fits. lol

anywaes, our arcade plays stopped when jun yue lost his wallet. poor guy, having to call all the relevant coy to cancel his credit/debit cards. anywaes, he was on enuf to say, nvm lar, lets continue playin! haha! ohwell, but we still made a trip to the police station, to report his loss of I/C, only to be told of a change of regulations? haha!

next on was pool. how ulu that place is, my first time ther! anywaes, it was getting late thereafter,and so gone was our durian party! ben was so keen too! lol. too bad too bad. postponed*/

after dinner at claypot place was hsh (:

p.s dear,hope u are recoverin well! missssss u!~(:
p.s.s so glad ur alrite by the end of the day girl!
p.s.s.s looking forward to the nxt grp outing!
p.s.s.s.s nxt up today, ad's placeeeeee.

wheeeee to a 3 months breaak (:

2008-05-12T00:51:00.007+08:00

the torturous exams are finally over (:

realised that i haven't been bloggin' for quite some time t00.

haha,but i dun feel like being too wordy today,not at this hour, so yeas, let a few pics sum up my past 3 days of post-exaam life (:

besides chilling out, i went to teach archery as well-got me so beaten! reallly. worse than a bangla. dun like, so i only agree to doing so for some small small income once in a blueee blueee mooon.

that post exam happiness (:

happy belated 21st andyyy (:

a certainly long overdue pic, miss you guys (:

happy mother's day mum, i wished u had waited, sad!

p.s did i mention? that the wind was so stong, my house sliding door got stuck. for the 3rd time. the other time, it was the toilet door which slammed and locked itself.

I'm gona be a superhero : )

2008-04-17T14:19:00.003+08:00

Moshimo negai ga kanau nara

Toiki wo shiroi bara ni kaete

Aenai hi ni wa heyajuu ni kazarimashou

Anata wo omoinagara

Darling, I want you

aitakuteTokimeku koi ni kakedashi sou na no

Maigo no you ni tachisukumu

Watashi wo sugu ni todoketakute

Daiyaru mawashite te wo tometa

I'm just woman

Fall in love

If my wishes can be true

Will you change my sighs

To roses, whiter roses

Decorate them for you

Thinkin' 'bout you every night

And find out where I am

I am notLivin' in your heart

Darling, I need you dou shite mo

Kuchi ni dasenai negai ga aru no yo

Doyou no yoru to nichiyou no

Anata ga itsumo hoshii kara

Daiyaru mawashite te wo tometa

I'm just woman

Fall in love

Darling, you love me

ima sugu ni

Anata no koe ga kikitaku naru no yo

Riyote de hoho wo osaete mo

Tohou ni kureru yoru ga kirai

Daiyaru mawashite te wo tometa

I'm just a woman

Fall in love

Don't you remember

When you were here

Without a thinking

We were caught in fire

I've got a love song

But where it goes

Three loving hearts are

Pullin' apart of one

Can't stop you, can't hold you, can't wait no more

I'm just woman

Fall in love

I'm just woman

Fall in love

This song is really lovely, my number one love song for now : )

"I'm a little girl trying to conquer the whole wideworld."

"All I need is a good disguise, where nobody could recognise."

"I'm gonna be a superhero!"

Lovely lyrics from another one of corrine may's songs.

I need a KICK.

Diary episode.

2008-04-12T22:46:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary

Mayb u might want to know more about my day.
Woke pretty early today, and thought really hard at how best to get to AMK for project.
And so, I took 31 to toapayoh followed by train to amk.
Sadly, 31 had a crack in the most unbelieveable place.
Rainwater leaked through it and I got wet-despite how much I tried not to! How lucky can tt b.
And much as I tried not to b late, I was somewhat late again. ( I gotta do smth bout that. )

Recently, I don't know why-but I am like becoming more and more sensitive to the little acts of people around me. I can make nonsense jokes out of small things, and always laugh at my own jokes when no one else does. That said, I duno why I can't take certain kinda jokes others make. Is it the jokes? Or is it me? Get esp. affected if the jokes surround life and death esp. Like hey, you are living, live it good. Those not, leave them at peace and not make jokes out of them! I rather you make a joke outta yourself, and yes, I will laugh, but yet respect you more for being able to laugh at yourself, not at others! ( oh and talking about that, I often mock ryan at becoming a monk: thats cos' I wana bring him into the conversation sometimes, sorry if that offends you dude! -no more monk-ish jokes. )

mindless,
Nikki

give me awhile.

2008-04-11T23:43:00.002+08:00

I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did you last let your heart decide?
I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride
A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us noOr where to go
Or say we're only dreaming
A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you
Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky
A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath - it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be
A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you
A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me

This song never fails to totally lift me into the clouds and keep me there.
Haha, i can totally dream of when im gona use this song!
Been my fav song since i was little, maybe primary school, when i first heard this song-
Am still loving it up till today! : )
Oh, and if i havent mentioned, the other fav is heal the world- : )

Had a grt day today; went to the that art thing that only kids do (well, even the stools were little!) haha, and i was trying to make the art more arty-with the idea of a camouflage; sadly it failed! well, u had ur revenge w that black blotch too ok!

looking forward to sunday (:
project at amk tmr: i must not be late! (font size 64).

you got me luvstruck.

2008-04-11T00:47:00.003+08:00

its been hella of a longg time since i last had an entry here.

many many episodes lately,really too much to blog (weird how sometimes u wana blog but thrs nth to say; and at other times, how u have so much to say u cant blog them all).

felt really relieved today, after having been able to talk to the 2 people i had really wanted to talk to, helluva relief.

thankyou for being thr rain or shine, u guys know who u are.

appreciate you all,none less than the other (:

31st and 51min. you'v got my mind.

u guys surprised me (:

2008-03-06T23:55:00.003+08:00

one of the happy moments i just gotta blog about (:

while at mac with the part of the gang, sudd, i saw this familar face looking into mac! lols, to think i even thought addie and bel were at tutorial or lect or smth, since i dint see them today-and guess what! haha, they went to buy me a cake! and even made this really lovely BOard (: I was totally caught unaware when belinda, adrian, jun yue, ryan, zikang and wilson sang me a bday song at mac! Haha, and the board, totally lovely! thanks to bel, jy and ad for all that effort, really really appreciate it alot! (:

thats all for now, looking forward to the outing tmr! : )
oh, and yes, thank u ad, for getting the cake right! : ) and to all the horrid ones, for sparing me with just cream and fries and curry sauce on my hands. lol,phew!

2008-02-29T12:02:00.004+08:00

looking forward to tmr's CNA "wise up to $$" event!

hopefully, i get to interact with more gui ren, and somewhat get to where i wana head into. haha!

goodluck for biathlon tmr (: (sorry for nt being able to b physically thr, but u hv my moral support!)

p.s THE LEAP YEAR!!

2008-02-16T23:13:00.002+08:00

there are somethings i'd rather not be told.
all that 19 years u never shared with me, and suddenly u tell me stuffs just cos' im turing 20 and u think i can accept.
its really hard to.
where's the fairytale land i have always been living in?
i need someone, to being me back to the land i wana be in.

With that much love,thankyou (:

2008-02-15T18:11:00.004+08:00

haven't blogged in the loggest time!

Events

Chinese New Year
Ah Long pte Ltd
Night of carom
29monthsanniversary, 10.02.08
Valentines Day, 14.02.08
Alf's bDay, 19.02.08
E-learning for Nm tuts, 19.02.08
Amazing race 23.02.08
Xx's Bday 23.02.08
Recess Break 23.02.08-1wklater.
Yumi's long dist swim comm 24.02.08

Seems like a pretty eventful week ahead! Am totally looking forward to all that above! And for those that have past, it had been somewhat memorable. Thankyou all for that flower,palette,patrick,choco,dinner (:

2008-01-25T10:07:00.000+08:00

i so feel like getting this ipod pink/red nano for myself. lols. im falling in luv with it..
oh, and cool, u can get it engraved too..

today's the 5th and last day of my work..the japan hour event, looking forward! just that, i duno if my attire's g0naa create a bigg hoohaa..hopefully not.

ciao. LOL. i learnt that word yest. details in the next episode of
http://nikki--yeo.blogspot.com.

for now, check this out! http://store.apple.com/1-800-MY-APPLE/WebObjects/AppleStore?node=home/ipod/ipod_nano&cid=CDM-US-iPod-C0005100-Edu&Email_PageName=Valentines1_6270C&Email_OID=189218&cp=116897&sr=em

2008-01-21T23:25:00.000+08:00

i chanced upon this draft i had, and its disturbing : (

2008-01-18T10:53:00.000+08:00

meant to blog yesterday, bout my really adventurous afternoon, but was too beaten by the heavenly maths mod, & all the tutorial/outing discussions that i dint get to blogging.

nevertheless,yesterday's mediacorp tour was realllyyy exciting! the excitement came from both the place itself, as well as trying hard to blend in and not get noticed as an intruder, despite the orange shirt, shorts and yellow slippers. HAHA!~ thanks jy2 for doing that 'utmost stunt' of bringing a pass out for me, (then agn, nvm. its uyr last week at work anywae). HAHA!
while i was roamin about at mediacorp, and having the time of my life at the reception area, i saw many of the artistes like jacelyn tay, venetta lopez, melody smth, this channel 5 guy, and the band. whats that winning band from singapore idol? yeas, that one. (not v amazing in real life though) But in general, i was really intriqued and amazed by all that stuffs in mediacorp. i really wana work there in future, deejay, reporter? haha. along that line. i would literally feel myself working in there, eating at the canteen as well as being greeted at the reception are. HAHA!
well, thats prob cos i spent 1 hour stoning at the canteen, and bout 2 hours at the reception area. HAHA! but, no regrets! it was reallly funn! HAHA. (never had solo time been so fun)! HAHA!

with that, i have got a resolution for jy2. that is, to get me into mediacorp for part-time work before he leaves. and from this time of post, he has bout..6 hours to do so. wahahah.

goonna go tampines with my grandma to buy her bag! and meeting with the gang at bukit timah (omg) tonight. looking forward despite the distance (:

p.s i am really proud of you my dear! (: hearts*

2008-01-16T19:24:00.000+08:00

much as i want my previous previous post to be true, ( TWO DAY WEEK! ), haha, somehow, cos of "complications", haha, i ended up with a ( FOUR DAY WEEK!! )- & even had to drop TS, sorry sorry! : X

anywae, im truly having fun with my modules
at least, im adoring my intro to new media writing as well as human resource biz module! (really excited bout both!)
and for my heavenly maths mod, im trying hard to get interested! spur me spur me! astro astro! (:
hopefully jap studies would be fine tmr, looking forward to it! just that, im super perturbed/disturbed. lols, how am i gona spend my 12-6pm tmr, omg.booooo!

hmm, had a great SSB2216 lesson today! (: afterwhich, i went to meet alf at bugis for a wonderful lunch at this new jap restaurant at bugis! its really yummy! (: and we spent most of the lunch yan-jiuing why is it that when u spin something, and when u look at the top, its CW, but from the bottom, its ACW. haha! why ar, why? hope to find out in heavenly maths tmr nite! (:

DEAL OR NO DEAL! WAH. LOVELY (:

2008-01-09T23:37:00.001+08:00

22 min to 10.01.08.
i'm striving hard to keep awake, with all that online shopping n cors website entertainment,hah

-happytwentyeight-
i reallypray that we wont quarrel anymore (:

2008-01-09T20:28:00.000+08:00

went w keely to bugis today..

got myself a "BAD ATTITUDE elmo tee" and another tube dreess-which i dun think i wud ever dare wear out. haha! i think the fate of tt dress would be just like the other zara "mango" like tube dress..washed once w/o wearing and has since been hidden somewhr in the wardrobe.

just another one of those shopping trips (:

ohyes! i got the biz ss module! hoorayy! and won a free treat for cheating. haha! nice one. hopefully i get the macroecons module that i want tmr, and that wud officially mean a 2 day week for me! yes! (: and i wana go take up singing or get more students for piano. anylobang? hehs.

stay strong yuan,luv.

2008-01-08T16:50:00.000+08:00

with all that spare time, i decided that its time to fulill my promise!

List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for:
1. Improve on my cap
2. fulfill wish 1 and 4 on old wish list.
3. The lotr ring, the 18 carat one! lol, for now tt is.
4. Learn driving! lolx, or rather, get past the damn BTT.
5. Fulfill wish 6 in my old blog!

The person who tagged you is? Zhi Huai
Your relationship with him is? Not too bad. We are able to get along well since the IBM Daze!
Your 5 impressions of him:
1. Ah beng!
2. Ah Beng with brains!
3. cool chap!
4. understanding!
5. Cartoon.

The most memorable thing he had done for you? i duno..whats considered memorable..but we had trips to the zoo, k box..trips arnd ibm..haha thats memorable!- since we cant go in w/out tt blue tag now!
If he becomes your lover, you will? die. not possible. haha! too good a fren!
If he becomes your lover, things he would have to improve on will be? it wuldnt ever happen
If he becomes your enemy, you will? Sad. why?
If he becomes your enemy, the reason will be? erm, backstabbing? haha!
The most desired thing you want to do for him now is? Tag him!!
Your overall impression of him is?Friendly, nice, crappy, understanding..cool!
How you think people around you would feel about you? Outgoing? life of the party. lol.
The character I love most about myself is? hmm, being cheerful
On the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?emo emo emo. i can be so 2 ends of the spectrum!
The most ideal person you want to be is? no idea,glad being myself. haha
For people that care and like you, say something to them: Thank you, for alwaes being thr.
For people whom I’ve hurt: Sorry, certainly wasnt on purpose!

Pass this quiz to 10 people whom you wish to know how they feel bout you:(In no Order of Merit)

1. ZHI HUAI :P
2. JIEYIN!
3. ANDY
4. LIZHEN
5. BELINDA
6. MAPLE
7. KEELY
8. WEITING
9. DEBRA
10. VIVIEN

1.Who is no.6 having a relationship with? this guy...
2.Is no.9 a male or female? feMale
3.If no. 7 and 10 are together, would it be a good thing? not possible!
4. How bout no. 8 and 5? they dont even know each other! lols.
5.What is no.2 studying about? Ntu maths and econs..
6.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?Msn or phone? Phone will be a few weeks back, somewhr in 2007 dec..msn,a few days back! Thanks for being there during the many emo months! hehs.
7.What kind of music band does no.8 likes? erm, im not too sure?? oops.
8.Does no. 1 has any siblings? Yes
9.Will you woo no.3? like No! omg. haha!
10.How bout no.7? sisterhood rawks!!
11. Is no.4 single? yes! single and available! wahaha.
12.What is the surname of no.5? cheng
13.What is the nickname of no.10? yewwwww. haha, thinking back, havent really nicknamed her!
14. What is the hobby of no.4? slacking and watching taiwanese shows on u tube i guess!
15. Do no.5 and 9 get along well? They dont even know each other can.. Haha
16.Where is no.2 studying at? NTU!
17. Talk something casually bout no.1? the last time we met was to go buy undies..for urhem. haha
18.Have you tried developing feelings for no.8? oh puhlease.
19.Where does no. 9 lives? somewhr near AJ..that area.. haha! arnd thr..
20.What color does no.4 likes?Hmm. white and black? haha. shes most often seen in those two colors!
21.Are no.5 and 1 best friends? Nope! but dont even know each other! lol.
22.Does no.7 like no. 2? HAHA. like as in???!
23.How did you get to know no. 2? JC! But got to know her even better last year!
24.Does no.1 has any pets? Erm, dont think so. HAHA
25.Is no.7 the most sexiest person in the world? ok, shes sexy. haha!!!

2008-01-08T15:55:00.000+08:00

i think mayb uyr right, i ought to find a hobby.

then again, mayb i decide that my hobby shall be to laze, to go suana, to go steambath-ing. haha,that said, how can suana-ing and steambath-ing be a hobby, or even anything near a hobby..hmm, its difficult finding a hobby, since im sucha hobby-hop person.

oh, how bout sandra-browning? (:

i just did this silly quiz on facebk, which i think is totally absurd.
Its on: "What kinda guy would you fall for?"

the survey results totally caught me by surprise. haha!

LOOK!

I would fall for a <Nerd>
Your man is socially awkward and completely sweet. Although other people may make fun of him now, just wait a few years and those same people that made fun of him will probably be working for him. He will worship the ground you walk on and love you like crazy, although he may not always know how to express it. You find his awkwardness endearing because you know that underneath all that nervous stuttering and passion for obscure subjects is a really great guy who adores you! *mayb alf's a hidden nerd? hehs.

and i did another quiz:- "What princess are you?"

I'm <Mulan>.
You are the self-made princess and the epitome of the modern woman. Beautiful and refined, you are capable of saving any situation, be it your family or your country. You don't need a prince to save your ass. The damsel in distress situation does not apply to you. Your true love is whoever is strong enough to match your intellect. In other words your prince doesn't pick you, you pick him. You're Mulan!

haha, okay, nuff quizzes for the day.
let's touch a lil on the cors bidding, and the modules im gonna take for the nxt semester..
TS1101E, 2 NM modules, Macroecons and hopefully a biz ss! hmm..and guess what? its gonna be a 2 day week for me lar! lol, i just realised it a few hours ago..hopefully a 3 day week when tutorials come in, dun wana appear as such a slacker. LOL (though i wud v much enjoy the long weekends..since im only gg to sch on tue and wed. HAHA!

im looking forward to friday.. (:
soon, it wud be the twentyeight..how fast this month has passed.
sly/.

(& shit,gotta watch lotr,just to pacify someone..LOL,nv liked tt kinda shows, duno why. 27 dresses! im looking forward to that show! heeeeeeeeeeee.)

2008-01-03T20:35:00.000+08:00

i haven't blogged in ages..

so eventful dec has been, its almost impossible to blog every single happening now..

visited two countries in dec

hokkaido-absolutely lovely! (gona post a grp pic beneath)

taiwan-really inferior,mayb cos we joined tour and were being rushed here and ther,that totally took away all the fun..

anywaes,i think im really too free today,resulting in a jellyfish lookalike as i look into the mirror now. went with my sister to cut hair-its supposedly just her cutting, but i somehow got enticed into cutting, and look now. shit. after that, we went for manicure, for the first time. haha. my fingers were so crammed from the "blowing dry" act, that i promise, i wont go back, not for the rest of 2008.

2007-12-20T23:29:00.001+08:00

the worrying is getting to my tummy.
i need much more than i seem to need.

2007-12-09T18:59:00.000+08:00

im feeling tt lil bit of happiness nw
was v happy when i saw something in facebook, which cheered me a grt deal
my stand has always been clear
i look forward to something good ( :

2007-12-04T00:36:00.001+08:00

When i look in your eyes i can see that youWant to be with me but you’re so scaredAnd i don’t know what to say or doBut the tears keep falling from your eyesAnd i know that times won’t change my loveAnd i can’t do nothing to keep you*oh, i’ll give my loveOh when i hold you tightGive my love through kisses oh so brightAnd you know that i can’t change my loveTake my love all through the night…As the hours pass awayYou think that love ain’t here to stayFeel a beat from your chestBut you don’t give doubt a moment’s restYou dream the future and all you see is darkListen to your heart, baby,The truth will set sparksNow i’ll give my love oh when i hold you tightGive my love through kisses oh so brightAnd you know, that i can’t change my loveTake my love all through the night…Now i’ll give my love oh when i hold you tightGive my love through kisses oh so brightAnd you know that time won’t change my loveTake my love all through the night… (*)

2007-12-03T20:52:00.000+08:00

why
we cant seem to talk properly anymore
i can do a better movie than one litre of tears.
since when did i become such a person.
i hate it.
give me back the me.

2007-12-01T13:58:00.000+08:00

24th nov-Econs
28th nov-Gender Studies
1st dec-Sociology
*3rd dec-The Nature of Lang
*5th dec-Communications and New Media

Three down, two more to go! i cant wait for wed to come! The socio which i got kinda stressed over is finally over! got stressed cos i shopped too much online and watched too much tv..
hais with a BIG H.
feeling so horrid today, cos i couldnt slp at all yest, stressed me cos i had a paper this morn. those stupid keyboard sounds and mouse sound tt i was hearing, urgh! bugged me thru the night, only to find out in the morn, aft careful scrutiny, that its the wind and the plastic. argh.
Was feeling quite horrid. Just then, this email came. It was headed "Nikki, Our States Affect Our Results". It came just at the right time. haha. and so i read, and so i smiled, and so i became better. felt better, somehow. (tell me if u nid that email too!) haha
Gotta prepare for EL now, bye for now!

p.s explain to me the meaning of a buddy.

2007-11-20T15:01:00.000+08:00

24th nov- Econs
28th nov- Gender Studies
1st dec- Sociology
3rd dec- The Nature of Lang
5th dec- Communications and New Media

wahaha, i really cant wait for the exams to come and go. then i can return to playing and watching tv and gg out blablabla,not tt im nt able to do all tt now,but cant really do in peace. lol!
i miss those carefree post a levels' days! haha,then again, i hated those times-having to worry bout uni matters..hah! if only we can switch the chronology of certain events! haha!

i'm so looking forward to the hectic december! ; ))
meeting up with jy, mj sessions with the gang, wahaha-i really duno how to play! oh well, addie said i just needa go thr to donate money-ar, charitable charity. hah! and meeting up w jh,sandy xx, i miss the former two! pls ar guys, 31st must turn up ok! cordially invited! hehs. Jalan Ulu Siglap. heeee : ))

good luck to all ppl! including myself! wahahah ; )

2007-10-29T17:03:00.000+08:00

its nt possible, i hate the feeling.

whats this. time and again.

2007-10-27T15:02:00.000+08:00

This blog's been lacking visual fer quite some time. I have this sudden missing for the idea of a class, and of working as a team in non-academic stuffs..mayb i wud really take a cca next sem. hmm..thr wud b a class chalet at the end of the year, and im sorta really looking forward, somehow! though the hokkaido and taiwan trips wud b v much a hindrance..nevertheless-i look forward to them all the same!

GO NIKKI! u can survive the 1 month plus! ; )

2007-10-27T01:31:00.000+08:00

im feeling really glad now that all things got thrashed out really neatly.

its really impt to communicate well i realised.

now that alls thrashed, i really feel a sense of RENEWAL. lol, funny word.

happy and relieved, im gg to bed, with a whole chunk of work awaiting: nevertheless, im feeling good, so nvm the work!

goodnight!

-nice meet up lao zhi! i bet he wud be shocked w the 2 ahems* ;)

2007-10-19T19:32:00.000+08:00

its friday, 19 33 pm, very seldom would i be at home blogging..

hmm,went to do NM proj this morn, surveyed ppl at bugis junction, pretty fun-the highlight of my day. paired with zhen li whilst li zhen and belinda went tog, and adrian only joined us after that..met many interesting ppl, those really rich ones! and this singtel accounts manager,totally swept me off. haha,old guy, w a belly (as zhen li describes) haa..my day had been a pretty happy one, from morning till bout 5 30, at least. (if thats smth that consoles me..)

what proceeds is gona be emo emo and more emo-ness, this is nt my idea of a good blog, but i just feel this compulsion to blog, i needa say it out. im feeling so suppressed and upset.

hmm..i duno, is thr smth wrong w me? love shouldnt be like this, it shouldnt.
why, i dun feel happy anymore, why? i changed, i have become more patient and tolerant, but this has only made me sadder. really really sad and disappointed. the thought itself brings tears, in the bus, while watching tv, while doing my stuffs, so sad. if only typing out everything out can change everything. sobs*

nevertheless, im consoled by the fact that many ppl arnd me care for me, and fer that, i love them. and i wana be thr fer them, whenever they need me.

listen to my blog song, it certainly explains best my feelings fer months, oh well, not the most ideal, but somewhere ther. i love this song..

2007-10-17T21:20:00.000+08:00

TAKE ME AWAY!

I HATE IT.

POS.

2007-10-11T16:28:00.001+08:00

WOW.
its been exactly 1 month and 3 days since i blogged. haha, due to popular dd, im back! wahahaHA! :D

so many interesting stuffs hav happened fer that 1 month 3 days since sept 8th! the last blg was bout sending sandy off, blink of an eye and sandy's coming back soon! :)) was just discussing w jiahui yest, gna have a K session fer US soon! :)) hehs, im kinda looking forward!
school has been super hectic w all that mid term tests (MTT) and projects..good news is that the mid term tests have just ended yesterday with the sociology paper. arh! guess what, the damn topic "race & ethnicity" which i focused on dint come out at all! (HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE!) dumdeedeedum!!(*) ended up doing on gender inequality-a topic which i dint cover at all! sad shit! (ah nvm.)

looking forward,

-I've got a NM proj to complete (5th nov!)
-participate in JY's best time of her month,lols. (2 wks frm that day)
-jun song's bdae party
-meeting up with zh to do up pressie
-meeting with min and shufen (& unfortunately, LL)
-K with weida and mp

HAHA/sounds like a hectic month ahead!
oh, and i sorta agreed to go try out netball recrea with zhen and belinda, haha..kinda looking forward to that too!
oh, and my freaking BTT test on the 16th, oh mine. pls wish me luck..i dun wana fail again ; X

Thats all fer now! : )

2007-09-08T00:20:00.001+08:00

have a good trip sandy, bon voyage!

sorry for forgettin d stuffs ; X

2007-08-24T12:03:00.000+08:00

I'm gna hav anothr round of an interview tmr, hope i get past it! hehs. (shiity thing is, why sat!!)

congrats jy! on getting into the rotaract subcom! hehs. both u and wh, lucky lucky! both get tog!

Dead-silence. Zhen,Adrian and Ryan (ZAR) lold. shud b catching it nw! hahas, sorry guys! Not catching scary movies this month. Don't wana scare d shit outta myself. LOLs.

oh man, jus spoke to alf & he said he might get the confined the whole of nx wk. oh man! should i be like HOORAY! or oh man! I think the only time we can go out proper would be like 3 weeks later. urgh. bad luck! Bad that i have the interview this sat, and he has the army marathon on sunday, damn the army! :(

hahas, okok i gtg rush! gna meet ZAR for shopping! hehs. missing Y(uan)-happy tuitioning! hehs.

2007-08-21T18:56:00.000+08:00

It's into the 2nd week of sch already, so fast! I'm beginning to get scared somehow

#Econs-still coping
#C & M-nothing much, except for the reaction paper,which was well, nothing Really much
#The Nature of Lang-i love the lessons! simply love*
#Socio-so dry i wana cry! man,help me!
#Gender studies-debates! i kinda looking forward,hehs : )

today, i went for my nature of lang class. Intending to go solo play, i took my own sweet time to get there, just to realise that i was kinda late. Lucky thing, saviour ryan messaged me and said he saved me a seat! HOW NICE : )) dun think u even kw i hav a blog, but! hope u get DW8 as well : ) lucks man! haha!

thrs this question that has been buggin me for quite some time: i wunder why is it that some people can get so close and yet so easily draw apart. haa, jy..i need to complain to u! LOLs. oh and befor i forget, thank u for being there that fateful wed! otherwise i wudnt have found that ulu place! LOL. Thanks budding buddy for accompanying me man! hahah, lucky thing u were ther, to sorta be that half-functioning compass! :P

have been catching many shows the past 2 weeks w alf.
Rush Hour (fight fight!), Perfect Strangers (thrillll!), Brave Story (by accident-cos we tot it was anothr show! lol), license to wed ( lovely! i like! pls alf, learn the vows! ;) ), *secret

ohman, since when have i become such a movie goer! thanks to alf. lols.

fri
had a sotong outing-many crashers, more than the sotong-ers! haha, but yeah, quite fun. k boxing-though i dint join em for dinner, but they had gr8t fun, as narrated mostly by yuan,zhen and adrian!

sat
caught the fireworks with alf! wonderful, if not for the crazyjuniors. spoillerrr!! hahas. andy said the fireworks on sat better than fri! lucky thing we went on sat, and sorry for ps-ing on fri dude! : X HAHAS. as to uyr genting proposal, keep me posted! ; )

gona send bro for class soon, bye! : )

2007-08-18T11:01:00.000+08:00

the last post was on d 13 of july. thats like YEARS AGO. oh man. time i do smth bout this blog, lest jy slaughters me, for wasting her effort! LOLs : X

frm then till now, its like lets count, july-aug 13-aug 18. oh man! slightly more than a month alr! LOLs.

many events hav taken place frm then til nw. if asked to elaborate on all,this entry wud certainly not hav enuf space (eh,wait.is ther lik a max.word thing for blog entries?)

*phone rings*
"Hi wo shi IRENE. appt 1130 ni zi dong lai hor!" oh yes! and its 11.10 alr. i gtg! HAIR CUT! like finally. have been procrastinating for like HOW LONG! hahas. update anothr day.

*piggyphant rocks-for owaes finding fault
*Jy rocks-for listening to me nag all the time
*San.JH.XX rocks-for being thr all the time
*Mum dad keely meiko myron yumi rocks-for loving me all the same
*jwd and mp-for owaes providing gr8t entertainment
*andy, for owaes volunteering to drive LOL
*SOTOng rocks-for the wunderful o wk (esp. ppl lik zhen,yuan,adrian,zikang)
*SOTOng crashers rock-for the wunderful outing
*frens whom i've been losing in contact w, hint hint*freee!!

*u still know u are the best,and ilyou* : )

2007-07-13T10:26:00.000+08:00

oh addition to the list ppl:
PRESENTING TO U

rabbita and his mum,bEEBEE! ; )

2007-07-11T13:55:00.000+08:00

Around the corner I have a friend,

In this great city that has no end,

Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,

And before I know it, years are gone.

And I never see my old friends faces,

For life is a swift and terrible race,

He knows

I like him just as well

As in the days when I rang his bell

And he rang mine but we were younger then

And now we are busy, tired women

Tired of playing a foolish game

Tired of trying to make a name

"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on him

Just to show that I'm thinking of him."

But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes

And distance between us grows and grows

Around the corner, yet miles away

"Here's a telegram mdm," "he died today."

And that's what we get and deserve in the end

Around the corner, a vanished friend.

Remember to always say what you mean

If you love someone, do let them know

Don't be afraid to express yourself

Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you

Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late

Seize the day, & u'd Never have regrets

And most importantly, stay close to your friends

and family, for they have helped

make you the person that you are today.

I'm kinda touched by the above. Feel that its really true. "Hence hence", we should treasure those around us. Just wana let all of u know that i really treasure u guys! Big and small roles u guys played in my lives, treasure u guys all the same : )

"hey let's say that we went on a date."

"oh okay sure!"

"let me say that we kissed"

"oh sure-and lets say i slapped u! " extracted from GARFIELD the comic! damn cute. LOL!

the person next to me in bed for d week in BKK! : )

BKK had been really really fun! the shopping-damn damn cheap! loved it alot! will upload the BKK picts from my camera when i get home! ; ) now, it shall jus be some random picts in my office com and hp! ; )

When we text a heart over phone, it looks like this : <3
In ma matical terms, it would mean less than three.
Thus love is meant for less than/not equal to three people.
No wonder Love does not work out when re's 3 or more people.( : <3>

looking forward to the bbq this sat! : ) PIT 2 PPL! ; )

list of ppl as of 12.07.2007

Alf
jieyin
min
shufen
andy
zhi huai
max
jojo monst
soon leong (mayb)
xx
jh
san
plus pluss keelys ppl.

thats all for now ppl. and the picts, i upload for uyr sake my friend! enjoy. LOL! ;p

2007-06-26T23:11:00.000+08:00

quote for the day

Desperate situations call for EXTREMELY desperate measures.

girl i need to talk to u soon, thurs pls come!

2007-06-22T22:57:00.000+08:00

me alf WD! still the same, nON STOP SIA! lol ; )

images of singapore.

AHH! sky ride. scaryy.

the men behind all tt free admissions!

heees : )

yeah boy!

shop shop!

TO END IT, I HAD MUCH MUCH FUN TODAY! NEVER FELT THAT FREE! ; ) THANKS TO ALFRED & ANDY FOR SUCHA GREAT TIME! & yes, not forgetting Terrence, wout whom, thr wudnt be any free admissions to all that lovely attractions! : ) & YES weida, nice catching up with u! : )

2007-06-20T20:58:00.000+08:00

why can't everything be as smooth as i want it to be? will it ever be?
where is the perfect world that i owaes dream of? does it even exist?
why is it that some people can just be so evil and selfish? damn sad to know.

THANK GOODNESS. i still have good nice loving ppl arnd me-to absorb my hatred. never hated so much la! damn sadto know tt myself.

FAMILY
ALF and his silly BROTHER
JY-fling-o-fling.
SANDY-so glad meeting u tmr
XX-u owe me u noe what
JH-mia fer so long.hope she comes back
MIN-my best confidante at work,duno what to do w/out

AH. i feel comforted again ; )

i wish to meet: viv,zh,rabbita,jy,jh,wd,mp.

Dear diary

2007-06-14T14:40:00.000+08:00

Dear diary

took leave on tues to bring the lil ones on their outing (supposedly). thanks/no thanks to the rain, we headed fer sembawang fcc instead of bishan park-well, good and bad! lols. good 'cos thr was aircon in thr, bad cos we got all sticky aft that playing with the kiddies at the playgrnd! Ah, catching! How often do u get to play catching at the ages of 19-yours truly, coming 19-jy and coming 21-?!

GAVIN( jy's cutie & WM's mirror)-AMANDA(aka cutie/crybaby)-GERRARD (aka molester/spitter)

All that aside, we had a preetyy great time with the kidos! they are really cute. loads u can learn from the kids. It really amazes me how they have such great interpersonal skills-they never fail to make us all not feel "left-out" in any/every sense. I really like tt Amanda frm semb and Annabel from CS. They both hav smtg in common-ATTITUDE. (attitude prob or whatever u call it)-They make me feel real. things that they say and do jus make me feel REAL/ALIVE/LIVING.

#Presenting snapshots of the/a day to remember

As a sum up, had a great time! ; ) thank u ppl, fer making my day so fufilling. if only everyday could be like tt, i dun mind not being paid fer the rest of the days..at least i am living!

At loggerheads, 21 mths and counting-funny huh!?

But, we can be that sweet all the same! ; )

A testimony of BMT survival

2007-06-10T21:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 21 MONTHS! :) what a nice night fer an evening..

okie. its been damn happening since the last time i blogged, from the mind boggling uni shit to work to everything! haha. stemming mostly from the uni shit actually. thank u ppl fer all that encouragement. u guys noe who u are! thank u ;)

tracking back
went to catch pirates with alf, but 3/4 of the time, cudnt really concentrate cos the uni thing was too disturbingg..we gotta catch tt show agnn!

tracking back
went to catch shrek with myron and alf, yea nice show. but some shit ass smoked in the cinema. choked me half the time! lols.

tracking back
caught men in white with alf, andy and bro! haha..thanks andy fer the chauferring from IBM to home and down to bugis! lols. haha! men in white is really funny! must watch ppl! haha!

tracking back
act-seh marcus, u better make true uyer words okie! lols. owaes so act seh nv change! lols. till that sat we meet. lolss! that jiang. get tt jiang out! lols. alf misses him! wahaha.

tracking back
eh girl remembr our double doubles. lols! they pop alr we can start plaanningg! fill uyer mind with ideas. gna hear u on 12th! lols.

tracking back.
tracking back..
tracking back...

cant remembr alr
thats all fer now!
:)

2007-05-28T17:53:00.000+08:00

*congratulations to u! company's best shot. wld b thr.

thank u fer coming thru all tracks justa have lunch w me. hees appreciate. & sorry fer forgetting the most impt doc! LOLS.

gna meet lz fer dinner tonight! ohshit. and i fogot to bring the fotos! ops. im so sloppy.

2007-05-27T15:54:00.000+08:00

mama! ; )

thank u mum fer sponsering the goods. LOLS

flea mkt kakhis! it had been lovelly w a takeaway of 232.20! ; ) hehehes. looking forwardd to the nexttt! hehehs.

: 0 )

2007-05-25T23:28:00.000+08:00

a single death is a tragedy; a million deaths is a statistic* so jus laugh.

I KNOW U ARE INTERESTED
today rabbit came join us fer lunch! really nice. min,rabbit,max,del,and our new mate-jojo monst sis aka shufen LAo jie. LOL.sssh. we went EXPO FOOD FAIR! lol. its pretty happening. so many many ppl. food rating: passable. lol. had uyer usual hawker hainaneese cheeken rice as well as satay and DESERT! yum. yes yes. so head fer the food fair now!

JUST IN CASE UYR INTERESTED
i took half day today! ohwell, nort really halfday since i left at 330 haha. supposedly, can earn more by taking tt 2.5 hrs off and giving piano lessons. HOWEVER, due to my usual bad cab donations,im happy to say tt i have effectively made a loss ONCE AGAIN. nice one nikki. LOL.

I KNOW U ARE INTERESTED
met up w rach today! so fun all the stories aft storrieess blablabala!! hope u and him last long LONG LONG! stop all the "ifs" "mights" "i think he wlds". u now what i mean ya! LOL. gues its been longgg since u took neos! u must be real happy! ; ) so sorry i cldnt cab back w u! i noe u _stand ya! : )

JUST IN CASE UYR INTERESTED
thanks andy fer taking the trouble to get the driving books fer both basic and final! yes yes yes, rendezvous as u call it! LOL. as long as alf supports, anything man! LOL. meant to treat, too bad u cancelled it w tt tart. lol. still owe u!

I KNOW U ARE INTERESTED
tmr is THE BIG DAY! hee. FLEA FLY MOSQUITO! jieyin, him.nikki, him! i cant wait! and yes,u are right if u had inferred this. jail term halts fer 2 days. hee! happy happy happeeyy! : ) wheee.*jailbirds out. AND miss jy, dun so nervouss! haiyo. be more nervous bout uyer testt! lucks to u dear! : )

hope uyer fone gets fixed up max, and cheerr!sorry fer "ps-ing"/

YES DEAR,now u have made it my habit to ignore u everyfri night jus cos u are coming out on sat. LOL. u instilled it in me eh. nort my fault! LOL <3> this song is dedicated to the u who is baggs full of shit. hee-with much more shit* : )

2007-05-22T21:06:00.000+08:00

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

p.s i love u.